First Book in UK

Today my class ended early so I decided to stop by Waterstone's to have a look if there is any story book that I'm interested in. Frankly speaking, I had an intention of getting like 4 books but then I decided to just get one in case I couldn't finish reading them all. And the book that I bought was the one that I saw in Malaysia and had longed to own one. And the feeling was like getting love at first sight. I felt very satisfied to manage to do book shopping on my own. And I really hope I can finish reading this book very soon and make another trip to Waterstone's again as I have already in my mind the list of the books I wanna get.


The title of the first book is "My Best Friend's Girl". It tells the story of a woman who's cheated by her best friend and her fiancé. They got a daughter who's later is to be under the woman's care as her best friend is fading so fast. The story will mainly revolve around how the presence of the little girl teaches the woman the meaning of forgiveness. I guess I'm gonna make a review once I've finished reading it but not sure when. Still, it depends on my mood.


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Stress

Ianya stress bila tau satu UK tau pasal kes pindah hall. Cakap la apa korang sume nak cakap yang pasti bukan korang yang mengalaminya.

Somehow aku harap aku pilih untuk pergi ke Sheffield...bukan di sini...kerana life di sini memang tak seindah yang digambarkan....

Pengalaman kita berlainan...jadi alangkah baik jika pendapat kalian disimpan sendiri tanpa menyuarakannya kepada saya andai kalian tau pendapat kalian itu sangat mengguris hati saya. Bukankah nabi menggalakkan diam andai diam itu lebih baik?

Saling melengkapi

Lengkap hidup hari ni...

Dihiasi perkara suka duka...

Pagi hari sampai ke malam tersenyum sendirian melihat keindahan ciptaan Allah...bumi London dituruni salji sejak awal pagi...mungkin kerana pertama kali melihatnya.

Tapi begitu mudah nikmat ditarik...setibanya di bilik, diri ini mendapat satu berita sedih dan tidak dijangkakan. Sesuatu yang membuatkan diri merasa usaha sia-sia begitu sahaja..merasakan diri ini banyak kurangnya..sesuatu yang sekali lagi mempunahkan keyakinan yang sedia ada rapuh. Sedih...tapi tak tahu pada siapa harus diluahkan...seperti biasa, diri mencari ketenangan dari Ilahi. Mungkin usaha duniawi sudah cukup...fizikal dan mental...tapi bagaimana usaha rohani? Mungkin kurang di situ...perlu muhasabah dan cari di mana silapnya...

Ya Rabb, bimbing hambaMu dalam menghadapi hari mendatang

Jatuh Lagi

Er...bukan jatuh apa...tapi jatuh sangap lagi

kali ni dekat Nicholas Saputra...suka tengok dia dalam filem Ada Apa Dengan Cinta....tu je...lain-lain tak...eh jap dengan dalam klip video Debaran Cinta....

Saya tak sepatutnya sangap malam ni sebab esok saya ada test math...wargh...revision belum abis lagi...next week ada test lagi....next next week pun ada test lagi...bosannya...tapi takpe, cuti winter bakal menjelang....so dalam kesangapan ni, Ganbatte Dalila :)

Senja Berulang Rindu

Tak tau kenapa malam ni hanya ada mood nak dengar lagu-lagu melayu yang lama. Aku lantas teringat pada lagu Allahyarham Sudirman yang bertajuk Senja Berulang Senja atau dikenali juga dengan tajuk Rindu, yang merupakan lagunya yang paling aku suka.

Teringat saat di mana mama, aku dan adik-beradikku yang lain menemani ayahku kerja. Balik dalam pukul 12 malam macam tu, ayah pasang cd lagu Sudirman, sampai track 15 aku suka ulang sebab lagu tu lagu kesukaan. Kakak dan adik suka juga kat lagu pelangi petang dan milik siapakah gadis ini. Lagu-lagu ni betul-betul nostalgia, mengingatkan aku kepada ayahku yang penat bertungkus lumus kerja bagi mencari rezeki untuk membiayai pelajaran kami adik-beradik. Somehow aku rindu untuk menemani ayahku.

Aku teringat ada sekali tu aku rasa sangat penat sebab baru balik dari mengikuti program mendaki Gunung Ledang tapi bila ayah ajak teman dia pergi buat research kat UM, aku tak sampai hati nak tolak. Aku rasa kasihan kat ayah, lalu aku ikut je. Dan memandangkan aku sorang je yang ikut time tu, ayah sangat sweet. Buatkan aku kopi pagi-pagi, ajak aku sarapan di restoran walaupun bukan restoran lima bintang tapi bila ayah yang order dan aku hanya duduk je, aku dah rasa macam lebih dari lima bintang. Kalau ikut ayah pergi kerja, pasti ayah akan belanja macam-macam.

Hari ni hari lahir ayah. Bila angah tanya ayah nak hadiah apa dari UK ni, ayah kata ayah hanya nak angah berjaya. Ayah,Angah akan berusaha untuk realisasikan impian ayah. Angah janji takkan hampakan harapan ayah. Angah akan selalu ingat yang ilmu pelajaran tu adalah harta paling berharga. Angah nak jadi hebat macam ayah. Ayah doakan angah berjaya ye. Angah sayang Ayah...Ayah lah ayah terbaik kat dunia ni. Terima kasih ayah sebab didik angah, along adik sampai jadi manusia berguna so far. Terima kasih atas segala yang kami terima selama ini. Hanya Allah yang dapat balas semua jasa ayah. Angah doakan ayah berjaya dunia akhirat, dirahmati dan dilindungi Allah selalu, dimurahkan rezeki dan ditempatkan bersama orang beriman di syurga kelak. SAYANG AYAH

Never Give Up

 

Touched

New hopes

New dreams

New ways

Never give up

Here In UK

It has been a while since I last updated my blog.But I don't think it matters because it just has a few readers.

The entry I posted before were written in Malaysia, and now it seems everything's happening too fast that I'm now in London, studying in Imperial College London, pursuing a degree in Biomedical Engineering and yet still struggling to improve my English.

Yeah, despite the fact that I already have a very tight schedule- 9am to 6pm - I take up English classes to help me to be more fluent in speaking and writing, which is on every Thursday ends at 8pm. I just hope that it's gonna be worthwhile. I like the teacher, very helpful and supportive. I remembered there was a time when I got almost all corrects for my grammar-preposition-fill-in-the-blank questions and he said to me "you sure can do it while you close your eyes, huh?". He even said that he should put me in other group since he saw me completed the exercise that he gave us. Well I guess if I want to improve myself, I am the one who should put lots of effort to realise it.

I think nothing much to say about London because I myself haven't been to many places in London yet. Why? Well I guess the answer is that because I don't really have friends to accompany me to go sightseeing. I admit that I'm not good at making friends and to make it worst, I am the only malay girl in my batch who's studying in ICL. Nothing to boast about. I am still holding tight to my faith that there's a blessing in disguise. Lots of questions are playing in my mind such as why am I destined to be alone here in London when in fact I'm not that good in socializing, why am I destined to have a roommate who doesn't have any religion when in fact I myself do not have a good understanding in my religion, why am I destined to be in Imperial when in fact I'm not that intelligent?

My sister told me to let this moment to define me of who I am and for me to discover my inner strength, but as days passed by, I still haven't discover anything. I find myself boring, what even to know what others think about me. I refuse to go to most of the events because I think I have no one close to me for me to go with. Plus, I am worried sick about my English. Can you imagine someone who is not good at socializing being stuck in the middle of the crowd with her bad English? How I hope my sister is here with me but then if she is, I will never learn how to be independent.

Yeah so I can say that everything is like a whole new experience to me, be it enjoyable or depressing. I hope it can make me a stronger and better person in future. Wishing myself the best of luck, I would like to quote on several lines from two songs- Stand by rascal Flatts and Beautiful Day by India Arie

Beautiful Day by India Arie

Life is a journey

Not a destination

There are no mistakes

Just chances we've taken

Lay down all your regrets because all we have is now

Wake up in the morning

and get out of bed

Start making a mental list in my head

Of all the things that I am grateful for

Early in the morning

It's the dawn of a new day

New hopes, new dreams, new ways

I open up my eyes and

I open up my mind and

I wonder how life will surprise me today

I'm gonna do my part and

Make this a positively beautiful day

Life is a challenge not a competition

You can still smell the roses and be on the mission

Just take a moment to get in touch with your heart

Sometimes you feel like you've got something to prove

remind yourself that there's only one you

Just take a moment to give thanks for who you are

 

Stand by Rascall Flatts

You feel like a candle in a hurricane

Just like a picture in a broken frame

Alone and helpless

Like you've lost your fight

But you'll be alright

'Cause when push comes to shove

You taste what you're made of

You might bend till you break

'Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up

Decide you've had enough

You get mad you get strong

Wipe your hands shake it off

Then you stand

Life's like a novel

With the end ripped out

The edge of a canyon

With only one way down

Take what you're given before it's gone

Start holding on

Keep holding on

Everytime you get up

And get back in the race

One more small piece of you

Starts to fall into place

 

Tribute to Luerd Kattiya aka The Princess

Oh no words could describe my feeling right now..I've just done rewatching my favorite thailand drama for the second time and I still couldn't bear watching the end of it. All I could say is that it is definitely absolutely very touching and heart wrenching. Give it a try eventhough you're not a thai drama lover but this series is worth watching.

This drama was aired on TV2 when I was in Form 2 (2004). I was back at home for weekend on Friday, when I switched the channel to TV2 and accidentally found this drama. The part that I watched at that time was when the hero protecting the heroin from being assassinated by an unfaithful soldier, a betrayer. But I was unable to watch the consequence of the story given that I had to go back to hostel where we were not allowed to watch tv during the weekdays. The only full episode that I watched was the part when the hero was in prison and the heroin secretly pay a visit to him. It's the part full of sad romantic words. But the ending part, I was only able to ask mum to watch it for me.

At the end of 2007, after I finished sitting for my SPM, I had an opportunity to watch it until the end part but sadly is I only could understand what was happening until the 8th episode as there were no english subtitles for the rest of the episodes. Despite of that, I still cried when I watch the final episodes. Even until now, the english subtitles only available until 8th episode and I'm dying to hope for the lakorn to be englush subbed until the end.

Summary taken from Crunchyroll;

After The Ruler of Yasothorn state was assassinated, his daughter, Princess Tippayarat-Darakumaree is relegated and live her life as a common girl. She accidentally meets Anothai, a son of the former right-hand soldier and he just knows her as Dara, a common girl. They become friend and develop to love each other later.

With his intention and his father's hope, Anothai attends the military school because he dreams to be a soldier to protect his country as that his father implant him since he was a child. Finally, he can be a soilder as he wish and becomes commandant later. Anyway, he just realizes the truth that Dara, a girl who he loves, actually is the third crown princess of Yasothorn. Anothai is very sorry to know that a common man like him can never reach a royal princess like her. But with his great love, he intends to do everything to help her to succeed the throne as a Queen of the Confederation State although his duty have to exchange with his life.

Let me tell you what the story is all about.

Unlike the common thai drama, this series revolves around the story of love between a faithful commander and royal princess, and the war and fight between the two states of Yasothorn and Khemarat.

Anothai means the sun whereas Dara means the star. They accidentally meet each other at a deserted island when Anothai save Dara from being drowned. Dara was told that an island not far from her royal house was very scary and even haunted by ghosts. She was curious to know the truth so she went rowing her boat there but the weather suddenly got worst and the raining made her boat turned upside down and she fell into the lake. Luckily Anothai was there as it was his favourite place to spend his leisure time. From then on, a friendship grew between them which later developed into love.

But little did Anothai know that his beloved friend was actually the third Crown Princess of Yasothorn, who is loved by the Crown Prince who is also his buddy at the military camp. Anothai realised that there is no way he could be together with Dara as they were from different classes, but his job as a soldier allowed him to protect his princess through every means he could achieve. Even though his duty has to be changed with his life. His only hope was to put Dara at the highest place as possible.

Credits to the main cast, Jesadaporn Pholdee as he was able to expressed his emotion effectively and successfully makes people sympathize with the fact that he was just a common man. From funny to serious to a sad role, he definitely able to convey that through his face expression. the director made a wise choice by choosing him to be the main leader for the cast. In case you want to know, some people told me that Tik and Aom really cried during the scene at the prison where Anothai waited for his death sentence. Even behind the scene, both of them looked very affected with the scene.

Comment on the plot:

There are actually a lot of signs telling us that the hero would die at the end based on the scripts mentioned by Anothai himself.

- When Dara told her name to Anothai, he was like a bit surprised. he later told Dara that Dara is actually not a good name as acoording to the meaning of their names, when there is Dara there won't be Anothai and when there is Anothai, there could not be Dara. this means they will not be together at the end.

-when Dara gave him a gold ring, Anothai promised that he will always wear the ring until he dies and wished to be buried with the ring in his finger

- During their meeting at the island after knowing Dara is a princess, Anothai told Dara if one day he die, he would like to be buried at the island so that he could dream of everything sweet that has happened to them at the island.

-Anothai always told the Chief of Defense that he is always ready to face his death, he even told Dara that sooner or later, the fact that he would die of defending his country would surely happen.

Most memorable lines:

Dara: The governor in my opinion shall think of the people and do everything to make the country and the people happy by considering their duty for the country more than the wish of themselves. Importantly, they must behave as an ideal, have sacrifice, bravery and honesty especially when the country is in critical situation, it is their duty to sacrifice themselves to bring peace and happiness to their people.

A scene after Anothai saved Dara from drowning:

Anothai: What's wrong? Why do you make such a face?

Dara: Are you human or a ghost?

......

Anothai: You don't know how to row a boat, how can you come here alone. Luckily your boat didn't sink in the middle of the lake.

Dara: I can save myself.

Anothai: You're silly and boastful. So childish. I should have let you drown to death

A scene when Anothai told Dara he passed the military exam.

Dara: I think when you're a big soldier, you may forget Dara surely.

Anothai: No matter how big soldier I will be, Anothai always know that there's someone who always wait for me here.

A scene when Anothai dueled with Sihasak to save the Crown Prince Sittiprawat.

Prince: A man shall die but shall not be disdained.

A scene after Anothai got a fight with Sihasak and Manthra.

Dara: Anothai, what's wrong with your face?

Anothai: I got a fight

Dara: That's why you're late right? Men are always like this, always solve problem with violence. Who says women are ill-tempered? Men get more ill-tempered than women.

Anothai: But women always solve their problem by crying (This appeared in another version). Don't wait then. Just go back.

Dara: Stop being sulky. Come on I'll heal your wound.

Anothai: If I can get close to you like this, I would rather be hurt everyday.

A scene where Anothai and Dara spent their time besides the waterfall eating fruits.

Dara: I'm thirsty, can you bring me some water?

Anothai: Yes your highness. I'll serve your command.

Dara: (Bit puzzled) As the queen, I command you, commander.

Anothai: (Laughing) You're the queen?

Dara: ( Nodding) You're the soldier, so you must be loyal to the queen with your life.

A scene where Anothai told Dara they cannot see each other too often anymore.

Dara: How can I see you?

Anothai: If you see this grass flower tied at the harbour of the palace building, it means I come back. I will row the boat to put it there in the first day when I come back then the next day, you can come to see me here.

Dara: So if I see the grass flower, I will see you. ( This is the significance of the grass flower)

A scene where nanny told Dara she forgot to take the rose given by Crown Prince Sittiprawat.

Dara: Which flower I want to keep, I will keep it myself.

Nanny: What is this flower?

Dara: It's grass flower.

Nanny: It's just a grass flower, why do you keep it?

Dara: Who knows how important this grass flower is?

A scene in the prison.

Dara: I want to just be Dara who doesn't have anything except her old friend on the island.

Anothai: Time cannot be returned. We have to move forward. The future queen of Yasothorn should not let anyone see her crying.

Dara: This will be my last time. No one will see me cry. The rest of my life, I will live it for your dream even though I will no longer have a heart. My heart will die when you die. I will not love anyone else. I will always have only you.

Below are the meaning of two of the soundtracks of this Drama

Song: Trab Dai (As Long As)

Like a destiny,

drawing us close together,

Like it's impossible,

but now 2 hearts are bound,

Eventhough I have only empty hands,

I have strength to do everything for you...steadily,

because my heart commands me,

to fight through it though the way is gloomy

As long as the sky still has starlight,

I want you to know

that my love will never vanish

I will take care, support and protect your heart

with the life of this man who love you

No matter how much the sky loves the star

it's not different from my heart that I have for you...always

no matter how long it would me

i promise I will always love you

Song; Koo Mai Kuan ( Unworthy/unfit for each other)

It's like we're in different skies, different classes

Oh love, I have never dreamt that it could fly across the sky

Because you're a star

Because I'm a common man

But tonight a star floated down from the sky to the earth

with love bathing my heart

I know I'm not good enough as my heart dreams to be

Even though you say you love me, I'm still dismayed

Because you're so valuable but I'm nothing

I just have this heart for you

No matter how much I love you, how much I love you

Every breath is still to less to give to you

Because I don't have enough

Just thinking about it, I always feel hurt

My heart that I have for you is still too less

This starlight has never faded out of my heart

and you, who is like my dream, can you hear me?

Even though it is so dark that I can't see any path

But in my heart, there is still starlight

But in my heart, there will be only you forever............

I'm updating....the outing

Last 17 July, I when hanging out with my one and only bestfriend, Nadzeerah. We went to watch The twilight Saga, Eclipse at the cinema and had a very splendid time commenting on each and every part of the movie....plus we have our own heart throb in the movie....But the spoil part was that we went in the theatre late so we didn't really catch up with the beginning part of the movie.

Apart from the movie viewing agenda, I superbly love the time when we had our early lunch at the food court. I had a korean cuisine whereas she had a Japanese Cuisine. It was my first time tasting the Squid Bibimbap and know what...I wish I could eat it everyday!!! It is definitely my favourite!!!

We had limited to be spent since I got an important visit to Dinie's school as I had to pass on an important document to her, so I invited Nad to accompany me to DInie's school. There, we had fried rice and cakes....yeah awesome you know....

To Nadzeerah, I really wish I could have more time to be spent with you cuz I know that it it so much fun enjoying my day with you.....thanks alot!!!

IB Result May 2010

Lama aku mencari kekuatan untuk menulis post baru ni. Post kali ni berkaitan dengan result IB yang aku terima pada 6 Julai yang lepas tepat pukul 9.15 malam waktu Malaysia. Bukan apa, aku masih lagi terkejut dan tergamam dengan result yang aku terima ditambah lagi dengan rasa sedih atas khabaran bahawa beberapa rakan seperjuanganku masih lagi tertanya-tanya status mereka.

Sebelum aku mulakan dengan pengkhabaran result aku, aku ingin sekali menyatakan bahawa doa aku sentiasa mengiringi mereka, aku sentiasa berharap mereka dapat tempuhi waktu-waktu perit sebegini. Dari dulu sampai sekarang, doa aku tetap bersama dengan mereka walaupun pada zahirnya aku seperti tidak ambil berat terhadap situasi mereka, tapi dalam hati ini hanya Allah saja yang tahu.

Post kali ini juga ditulis bukan dengan niat untuk menunjuk atau berbangga dengan result yang aku dapat, jauh sekali untuk merasa takabur, ujub mahupun sum'ah. Na'uzubillah. Cuma aku harap catatan ini mungkin dapat menaikkan semangat serta serba sedikit dapat jadi peringatan bagi sesetengah pejuang jihad fisabilillah di luar sana yang pernah mengalami nasib seperti aku. Aku juga ingin menjadikan catatan ini sebagai pendorong motivasi kepada diriku sendiri.Maklumlah, aku bukanlah pelajar yang sangat pintar di kolej jauh sekali menjadi antara yang teratas dalam senarai pelajar pintar mahupun menjadi sebutan cikgu-cikgu.

Tapi aku ada prinsip sendiri dalam menempuhi dunia menimba ilmu ini. Seperti yang kakak aku pesan, apabila kita belajar, kita bukan bersaing dengan orang lain, bukan untuk membandingkan diri kita dengan orang lain, sebaliknya dengan diri sendiri. Sungguhpun ada orang yang lebih tinggi pencapaiannya dari aku, aku tak pernah membanggakan orang tersebut jauh sekali merasa cemburu dengan mereka. Itulah yang menjadi pegangan aku selama ini. Kadang-kadang aku merasakan aku seperti dalam dunia aku sendiri. Apabila prestasi aku meningkat, aku tak harapkan pujian dari kawan-kawan ataupun cikgu. Malah aku lagi rasa tidak senang duduk jika mendapat pujian. Jikalau boleh, aku taknak sesiapa merasa rendah diri dengan aku. Sebab aku sama sahaja dengan yang lain. Namun aku pernah merasa goyahnya pegangan aku ini ketika hampirnya waktu peperiksaan IB. Sebelum itu kami perlu menduduki Mock Exam bagi menentukan sejauh mana Intensive Revision Programme berkesan bagi kami dan untuk melihat persediaan kami bagi menduduki IB Exam. Ketika itu, keputusan aku jatuh teruk dengan markah English Essay aku yang hanya mendapat 19/30 dan Malay aku yang hanya mendapat 17/25 (paling teruk dalam sejarah pembelajaran aku), dan salah seorang rakanku yang tidak menghadiri kelas selama beberapa bulan mampu skor lebih baik dari aku. Ketika itulah aku merasa down sangat, dan boleh dikatakan itulah kali pertama aku menangis kerana pelajaran. Seumur hidup aku sebelum ini, belum pernah aku menangis kerana pelajaran tapi ketika itu hanya Allah saja tahu betapa mencabarnya waktu itu.

Dan antara lain pegangan aku ialah untuk tidak mengutuk cikgu dan membandingkan antara cikgu. Walau macam mana teruk pun cikgu tu mengajar, aku kuatkan semangat aku untuk elakkan diri dari mengutuk cikgu. Bila kawan-kawan aku kutuk, pada zahirnya memang aku bergelak sesama mereka, tapi di belakang aku menangis mengenangkan cikgu tersebut. Aku tidak mempunyai kekuatan untuk menegur rakan-rakanku. Aku masih ingat lagi bagaimana rakan-rakanku memuji-muji cikgu-cikgu tertentu dan mengatakan mereka sayang cikgu inilah itulah. Bagiku, kasih sayangku pada cikgu-cikgu semua sama rata dan mereka tetap aku ingati dalam doaku. Dan bagi aku lagi, cikgu-cikgu Kolej Mara Banting are the finest products. Kesabaran mereka, kecekalan mereka mengajar, bagaimana mereka tidak membezakan anak-anak murid mereka.Aku sentiasa tanamkan dalam diri aku yang aku taknak menghampakan harapan mereka, walaupun pada hakikatnya aku telah hampakan harapan cikgu Physics dan Chemistry aku. Maaf cikgu.

Dalam kita belajar, kita perlukan keberkatan dan keredhaan. Yang paling utama dari Allah. Setiap pagi, aku akan perbaharui niat aku dengan mengutamakan Allah sebagai niat aku belajar. Kerana Islam. kerana saudara seagamaku di Palestin, Iraq, Lubnan, Afghanistan dan di seluruh dunia. Aku akan berusaha agar keluarku dari bilikku diiringi dengan doa tawakal dan ayat kursi serta ayat 1000 dinar. Dan yang paling penting solat kita. Solat fardhu jangan tinggal, insyaAllah aku cuba. Ditambah lagi dengan solat tahajud, solat hajat serta solat dhuha. Ya, waktu dhuha adalah waktu kita minta rezeki kita dimurahkan. Hayati setiap doa yang kita lafazkan. Jangan pernah kita bongkak dengan Allah.

Hm...aku rasa penat juga membebel ni. Oklah, aku akan teruskan dengan detik-detik yang aku lalui pada 6 Julai 2010. Tepat jam 5.09pm waktu Malaysia, kakak aku yang sedang menuntut di UK telah menghantar sms kepadaku.

Diyana: Agh, rzults camne? :) Asal x inform alg lg nih. dh pns bontot.

Dalila: Eit blum kuar lg la. kn agh da ckp pukul 1.15pm tmpt alg maknanya kul 9.15pm agh. sabar ek. agh lg cuak ni

Diyana: Awat lmbt sgt? Alg dh confident nih. Pelik lah asal x kuar2. alg nk check online gak.hntr psswrd

Dalila:x payah. nanti alg kne heart attack. haha. mana ble cek ramai2

Diyana: Ala. Alg check la lps agh check!! kalau kena heart attack, ada ramai cardiologist kt cni :D

Dalila: Mama kata gatal je rupe. erm nnt bila agh da cek, agh bg la link tu kt alg, okey?

Diyana: Bkn alg yg gatal. alg comel. being cute is not a crime!! Bg la skrg...

Dalila:Nanti agh takut alg bkk slh time. nanti ble get blocked.

Diyana: X. Alg bukak sejam lps agh bukak. janji.plz :) alg pun nk tau gak.huhu

Dalila: Okla....nah link..........

Haha. tu dengan kakak aku...awalkan? Adik aku pula dah pun call semalam nye tanya result aku tapi aku kata keluar 6/7. Dalam puku 9.03pm aku pun cuba la buka link tu nk tengok...haha tapi website tu ingatkan aku keluar pukul 9.15....masa tu aku dah solat isyak dah pn. Alhamdulillah masa solat, aku boleh tenangkan diri dan tak ingat nak ambil result. Tapi, dlm pukul 9.05pm, aku dah mula menangis kat mama aku. Mama aku duduk sebelah aku time tu mengadap lappy aku nak tengok sekali result aku. Aku menangis, aku kata ngan mama ku "Ma...angah belajar tau ma. Kalau result angah teruk, angah nk cakap juga angah belajar. Bukan angah tak belajar...angah dah cuba sehabis baik....". Haha...bila aku cakap camtu ngan mama aku, mama aku jawab pendek jek "ye mama tahu".

Dan apabila pukul 9.30pm....aku pun kuatkan semangat membuka link website IBO, memasukkan Personal code dan PIN...dan menekan butang login...

Maka aku tunggu la page tu loading...

Aku bukak mata perlahan-lahan, aku kaji grade aku dari subjek first sampai bawah. Aku telan air liurku. " Ya Allah, hanya ada gred 6 dan 7". Aku terus menangis, memanjatkan kesyukuran kepada Yang Maha Kuasa...aku terus peluk mama aku..."Ma, alhamdulillah angah dapat 40 ma...." ( Gred 7 ibarat gred A) Dah puas menangis, baru aku tengok dengan teliti subjek apa yang aku dapat 6...Chemistry dan Physics...aku menangis lagi, tapi kali ini tangisan terkilan, kerana itu adalah subjek harapan aku...dalam aku penat-penat nangis tu, mama aku tepuk bahu aku menyuruh aku menatap skrin lagi sekali " Angah! Angah! Math angah 7 lah!!!"....lagi sekali kami menangis kesyukuran. Masa tu, perasaan bercampur-baur. Ya, memang aku terkejut sangat. Math aku paling tinggi selama ni hanya 5 dan Allah telah mengurniakan 7 kepadaku kali ini. Mama terus meningatkan aku agar bersolat sunat dan sujud syukur....aku akur.

Ya Allah...aku bersyukur kerana Engkau telah permudahkan perjalanan aku menuntut ilmu. Dari aku PTS, UPSR, PMR, SPM dan kini IB...Allah tak pernah hampakan hambaNya yang hina lagi kerdil ni. Tapi aku tahu, sungguhpun aku tidak diuji dalam bidang ni, aku diuji dengan dugaan lain. Biarlah hanya aku saja yang tahu...dan juga Dia.

Harapan aku kini agar adik aku yang paling aku sayangi, Dinie Nuruliman, akan dapat menyertai kakak-kakaknya untuk menuntut ilmu di UK. Kami akan sentiasa mendoakanmu dan sentiasa menanti kedatanganmu, Dinie.

New Moon and Fine Frenzy

I know I'm a little bit late but yeah..I've just done watching New Moon... (please don't boo me)

Overall it's fantastic, really unexpected to know that Jacob is a werewolf and Edward's suicidal thingy is really out of my mind. But the part that I like the most is Bella's ability to decide between Jacob and Edward. At least that tells there's distinction between love for Edward and love for Jacob. I like the part where the movie left us with a question of whoever going to turn Bella into the bloodsucker? Could it be Alice as what Alice had foreseen or could it be Edward who had asked Bella to marry him in return for him changing Bella into vampire? Well, I don't dare to make any wild guess because who knows if the plot twists and Victoria turns out to be the one who changes Bella ( well I don't read the books because I want it to be a surprise...hehe). Whatever it is, I can't wait for Eclipse to be released this June 30. (There's shocking truth: my lil sis doesn't even feel like watching Twilight Series.Dunno why. Maybe she's not into this fantasy genre.)

Another thing is I bumped into songs that kinda related to New Moon which are sang by A Fine Frenzy. So far, I found only two: Almost Lover and Near To You. Almost Lover is kinda dedicated to Edward and Near To You is for Jacob. Almost Lover is absolutely my favourite. Here are the lyrics

Almost Lover:

You fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy for you
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Near To You:

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Such pain as this
Shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
Still a little bit delirious

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

You and I have something different
And I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be

He's disappearing
Fading suddelly
I'm so close to being yours
Won't you stay with me
Please

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I belong
Where you are

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
Though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

Yet, I'm better near to you.