Tell Me That You Love Me

The song that I have liked since I got to know Kim Rae Won

Tell Me That You Love Me by M to M

Translation

Just once, even if it's just once
Will I still be able to love you
Betting my everything
All the happiness that's left in front of me
Will I have the courage to throw it all away and choose you
In front of whatever questions
My answer is always you

Hiding and hiding
My heart for you
Is longing for you as much as the sky, what am I to do
Will you be able to cover it with your hands
I love you
It's so blinding I can't even open my eyes

It happens just once, if I'm to live one day
I want to put it to use without any regrets
This life that isn't easy
Keeps making me forget you
It's so hard~

Hiding and hiding
My heart for you
Is longing for you as much as the sky, what am I to do
Will you be able to cover it with your hands
I love you

Maybe during the time we're living
We might not be able to come, not even once
If I can't tell you today
I won't be able to tell you tomorrow either
Even if your tears fall
Tell me you love me
Living my life for you
That's what's good for me
Until the end~

Romaji

dan hanbeon
dan hanbeon bakke motaedo geuraedo
neol saranghalsuisseulkka
nae jeonbureul da geolgo nae ape nameun manheun haengbogeul
beorigo neol taekhal jasin isseulkka
eotteon mureum apeseodo naui daedabeun hangsang neoya

gamchwodo
sumgyeodo
neoreul hyanghan nae gaseum
jeo haneul mankeum geuriun geol eotteokhae
soneuro garyeoseo pihae jil su itgenni
saranghae
nunbusyeo
nun tteul su do eobseo

dan hanbeon inde harul sarado
huhoeeobsi sseuda gago sipeunde
swipji anheun sarmeun jakku neoreul irke hae
deo himgyeowo

gamchwodo
sumgyeodo
neoreul hyanghan nae gaseum
jeo haneul mankeum geuriun geol eotteokhae
soneuro garyeoseo pihae jil su itgenni
saranghae

eojjeom uri saneun dongane dan hanbeondo mot olji molla
oneul mal motamyeon naeildo mot haltende nunmurinado
saranghanda malhaejwo
neol wihae saneun sarm geuge nareul wihan geol
majimakkkaji

Hangul

단 한번
단 한번 밖에 못해도 그래도
널 사랑할수있을까
내 전부를 다 걸고 내 앞에 남은 많은 행복을
버리고 널 택할 자신 있을까
어떤 물음 앞에서도 나의 대답은 항상 너야

감춰도
숨겨도
너를 향한 내 가슴
저 하늘 만큼 그리운 걸 어떡해
손으로 가려서 피해 질 수 있겠니
사랑해
눈부셔
눈 뜰 수 도 없어

단 한번 인데 하룰 살아도
후회없이 쓰다 가고 싶은데
쉽지 않은 삶은 자꾸 너를 잃게 해
더 힘겨워

감춰도
숨겨도
너를 향한 내 가슴
저 하늘 만큼 그리운 걸 어떡해
손으로 가려서 피해 질 수 있겠니
사랑해

어쩜 우리 사는 동안에 단 한번도 못 올지 몰라
오늘 말 못하면 내일도 못 할텐데 눈물이나도
사랑한다 말해줘
널 위해 사는 삶 그게 나를 위한 걸
마지막까지

credit to http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/34225/m-to-m/tell-me-that-you-love-me.html

Happens for a reason

As Ibn al-Qayyim rahimahu Allah (may Allah have mercy on him) said, “When Allah tests you, it is never to destroy you. Whenever He removes something from your possession, it is only to empty your hands for an even better gift.”

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about what I have done during my years in secondary school. To me, it was a very big mistake. A big mistake that has made me regretting it so much. I had been slacking so much during that awful years. I spent time doing sinful unnecessary thing until Allah showed me "it's" true colour. From then on, I have tried my best to avoid it and I managed to avoid it for like 3 years (until now) until recently it had tried to come back to me. I was so scared I made the same mistake as I have been trying seeking my better self since I was in college. And I did my best to give it many reasons pointing out how determined I am not to repeat the same mistake. Since it was really hard trying to urge it to back off, I tried sharing an article about the sin I made. Unexpectedly, it questioned about the laws and played around with the laws as if trying to point my mistakes. And I felt like it's trying to stop me from changing to be a better person. Oh only God knows my feeling when I read what was written in the message. I could only continually made istighfar. At that time, I totally felt ashamed of myself because it was me who started that mistake. But I totally had repented and I hope Allah will accept my repentance. I felt like crying my whole heart out but no one can hear my crying. I take that as a test for me...a test to see if I really wouldn't go back to the old path. And now I have realised, why I received so much objections when I tried to be closed to it during secondary school. It's mainly because Allah knows it's not good for me...and even my friends all know it's really bad for myself. I wish I had listened to my friends earlier. I feel so much peaceful now that I had thrown it away from my life. And now the only thing I can hope is for Allah's forgiveness. "Please ya Allah, guide me to Siratal Mustaqim, the straight path, The way of those on whom you have bestowed your grace, not the way of those who have earned your anger, nor of those who have lost their way and are astray." And to all those out there whom I might have hurt for a slightest moment, please forgive me sincerely, especially mum dad and my sisters. I am so sorry that I have disappointed all of you because of it. I am sorry...

Belajar = Susah

Ingatlah wahai diri...

Di luar sana, ada ramai orang yang susah, yang tak pernah punyai peluang untuk bersekolah, tapi sentiasa punyai usaha mencari duit dan menyimpan impian untuk ke sekolah suatu hari nanti. Mereka tak kisah biar bersengkang mata mencari punca rezeki. Asalkan dapat laksanakan impian tersebut. 

Tapi anda? Dah dapat peluang masih tak bersyukur. Susah sikit merungut. Susah sikit melenting. Kalau belajar tak susah, baik tak payah belajar. Kalau belajar tak susah, takde beza orang yang belajar dengan tak belajar. Kat luar sana, ramai lagi yang sanggup bersusah asalkan dapat belajar. Kalau asyik merungut, pergi bagi peluang tu kat orang lain.

Baru dua paper susah..tu pun tak dapat result lagi. Kalau it turns out to be not bad, buang lelah je mengamuk sana sini. Malu dengan diri sendiri. Malu dengan Allah. Baru diuji sedikit dah mula nak give up. Shame on you, diri. So apa lagi...buka buku math tu pergi buat latihan. Daripada buang masa complaining lecturer ini itu tak bagus, baik pergi gunakan masa untuk cari nota. Jangan sampai nanti mati bila ditanya, usia kamu dihabiskan bagaimana, baru tersedar "oh saya kept on complain pasal lecturer sampai nak belajar nak beribadah pun tak sempat." 

Sentiasalah muhasabah diri anda. Carilah mana punca kesusahan tersebut. Besar kemungkinan dari diri anda sendiri. Fikir-fikirkan.

Renungkan balik kata-kata hikmah " Biar susah macam mana hidup di dunia ini. Yang penting kita tahu di akhirat kelak akan ada ganjaran bertemu dengan-Nya". Subhanallah. Semoga segala ilmu yang dipelajari diniatkan kerana Allah Taala. 

P/S: Post kali ini untuk diri saya sendiri. Tiada kaitan dengan mana-mana pihak lain. Harap Maklum.

To Stand Again...is another problem

"You feel like a candle in a hurricane

Just like a picture with a broken frame

Alone and helpless

Like you've lost your fight

But you'll be alright, you'll be alright"

Never lose hope, Dalila.

"Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend till you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand"

You've fallen so many times and yet here you're still standing. 

So I guess another fall doesn't hurt that much.

You'll keep fighting for the next three papers. Even if you fail your Mechanics Exam, it doesn't mean that much because everyone feels the same as you. People can't talk about it because they didn't take that exam. Only you guys know how hard was the paper.