Windflower by Jisun Feat. Alex

What I'm feeling right now...I think I don't really understand myself...the feeling comes and goes just like it want to...Sometimes it turns out to be a hatred sometimes it's a longing...If you're thinking about someone and you get a heartache..what is that feeling? You don't love that someone yet you don't really hate that someone...You want and in the same time you don't want. Been having that someone in my dream frequently recently...and I don't know why. Is it because I've been too far from my Creator that this feeling comes lingering around me? But I have try my best to be near to my Creator...5 times prayer, reciting Al-Quran, listening to Islamic talk...or maybe this is a test for me. But why does it happen when I am too busy to think about it? I've been a fool just because of this feeling that I dunno how to control....and it's almost 10 years that I have to live with this feeling....how long do I have to endure this.......? I feel ashamed of myself that I somehow have allocated a space in my heart for this kind of feeling...Forgive me, as I am really a weak servant. 

Lyrics
한번쯤 나도 그대의 마음에
피고 지는 꽃이 되길

나의 맘은 늘 그대 안에서
흩어지는 바람처럼

남겨지지 못하는 사랑이 되죠
참 외롭게 지킬 약속이 되죠
미련한 내 사랑은 그대 곁에서
가질 수도 없는 꿈을 꾸네요

내 곁에 그댄 날 원망하겠죠
결국 나를 떠나겠죠
나의 맘은 그대를 품고서
부서지는 바람처럼

간직하지 못하는 사랑이 되죠
참 아프게 삼킬 눈물이 되죠
서러운 내 사랑은 그대 안에서
나을 수도 없는 상처가 되죠

기억해요 한번도 그대 가지지 못한
내 사랑은 서럽게 시들어도
지켜줘요
서러운 내 맘 울던 자리
그대 안에 마지막 사랑이길
Your love, Your love, Your love

한번쯤은 나도 그대의 마음에
후회없이 피운 사랑이 되길
결국 아픈 눈물로 사라져가도
사랑 끝에 시든 꽃이 되주길
언젠가 우리 서로의 마음에
상처 아닌 사랑이길

Translation
At least once, I want to become
a flower that blooms in your heart
My feelings scatter inside you
like the wind

It becomes a love that never lasts
A promise that is lonely to keep
My lingering love will stay by you
and dream an unattainable dream

I guess you will resent me while by my side
and eventually leave me
My feelings will embrace you
and like the scattering wind
become a love that cannot be kept.
It becomes tears that are difficult to swallow
This lamenting love of mine inside you
Will becomes a wound that will never heal

Remember this sorrowful love of mine
that never had you and simply withered away
Please guard the spot in your heart
where I mournfully cried

That it would be the last love in your heart
Your love your love, your love

Just once I want to become a love
that blooms without regrets in your heart
Even if love fades away in painful tears
at least it would be a withering flower
That we will be a love in each other’s hearts
that does not leave a wound

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