Break My Fall

I've just received my third semester results..and it is very very very disappointing...very discouraging...even though it has been expected but somehow I still hoped for miracle to happen...

but somehow miracle didn't happen this time after it had been part of my life before this...

Here is the pattern of my results for the past three exams

Physics: 6 - 6 - 5

Chemistry: 7 - 7 - 6

Maths: 4 - 5 - 5

BMS: 5 - 6 - 6

malay: 7 - 6 - 6

English: 5 - 6 - 6

Everything seems to drop....no improvement...no advancement...it is such a big regret I must say..total points this time is only 34...i feel bad to make my parents, sisters and teachers disappointed...sorry..just because of one guy, I hurt many people...

but...luckily I experienced the fall during my third sem...what if I never wake up from my comfortable yet distracting dream? surely I would end up with something like this for my final IB exam...and if that does happen, there's no more time for me to make any amendment to myself....

On the other hand, the fall makes me realise my mistakes or faults...

Here is the result from my reflection:

- I've been lacking of night pray

- I've been lacking of memorizing Surah

- I seldom turned to Allah when I was down

- I didn't do my weekly revision for new things I've learnt in class

- I was overconfident..yet felt very comfortable

So, I need a change now...to bring back myself to the right path...

I hope everyone around me would help me and be a reminder to me..

hope so...

and now I am eager to start all over again....

so that I won't be pretty much sucks as my parent's investment

got to give them good news later...

pray for me diary...